Does anyone else feel like the world is falling apart?
The subject line is first inspired by our computer not working, which is why I haven't been able to participate sooner. Apparently, we bought it from someone who had hacked it together and now that windows is catching people - we're caught. (I hope to eventually post pictures of myself as a mermaid -- that should get you curious)
More than this though is Catrina and tsunamis of course. All kinds of other things that I was blissfully unaware of before too. Like all the worries of money, the commonness of cheating and lying, slandering and manipulation. I don't like being "grown up" and knowing sometimes. I think of Jared's teaching that we ate of the tree of the "knowledge of good and evil". It's made us sick because we were never supposed to know the difference.
All I can say sometimes is "Come quickly Lord Jesus".
However, it's not all bad. I've been invited to participate in leadership of a group called Cross Current for sexual healing. This is another step in the Lord revealing his longtime hints about my specific calling and giftedness. Jesus was wonderful last night with a broken woman, as my co-leader and I stumbled informally through theophostic principles. What a joy to know that He does it ALL and that my dreams of being involved are not dead.
posted by karen at 10:47 PM
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I think I feel more that I we just don't have any control. I am reminded of the Psalms where it describes God as sitting in heaven laughing at the audacity - the downright foolishness of men in thinking they control anything. More than anything I have been crying and praying for God's compassion.
And if another teacher at school tells me that Bush doesn't care about the suffering...
2:37 PM
i know. my coworkers father is the most vocal liberal nut i know. he's convinced everything is Bush's fault. i don't think he has the power to cause hurricanes, personally.
control is a huge thing. wanting it, not having it, believing i have some effect so i don't fall into doing nothing, wondering what God's doing since he's the one who does have it. this is very hard for mike and consequently i don't even try to think about it or figure it out becaue i don't like conflict and debate, probably not healthy.
1:01 PM
Karen- I know exactly what you mean about control. That is the main issue in my life- And sometimes I wish I could sit down with a map and lay it all out- but I know KNOW that God's got it better for me... so why is it so hard?
3:43 PM
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